Being Hospitalized

Good evening dear readers.

I am reminiscing on my not so old but hard tough days.Last 5 months before,i remember that i had catched a cold,a mild sore throat and flu.All that last for almost a week before i decided to go to medical centre in my campus near my residential college.I am not the type that can fall sick easily,even if i am sick,i will recover fast,fast and well.Am i an ironwoman? kidding. But not this time.Something was wrong.Apart from that,i'm also having irregular and heavy menstrual cycle,and it's been over a month but i'm still losing my blood non stop.And that's not the first time too,i have experienced that creepy menstrual cycle,but usually it will stop at some point and i will recover fast and well again.But not this time.The symptoms were becoming more obvious.

I have difficulty to retain my energy in which i would likely feel very tired and exaushted even for a short walk.From my college's cafetaria to my room for example,i would stop for about 3 times at 3 different spots just to catch up with my breath and for resting my legs a bit.I would not rush to the classroom from the bus stop even if i'm already damn late,and because of that,i'll usually take the ealier bus to my faculty.The heavy breathing and leg tremble will double their intenseness if i'm climbing stairs or carrying a bag or any other heavy things along.Phewww.so complicated. >:(

So after knowing that Mandarin class had been cancelled that day,i made my way to medical centre.I told the doctor about my sickness and i had to check my blood.I had a low Hb level; around 4 which is completely unacceptable beacuse the normal Hb is about 10-14 if i'm not mistaken. ><. So i was send to the Kajang's Hospital,alone. TT TT

At the emergency ward,omg there were so many people and sort of crowded for that small spaces.Some of them have their skin injured that i can see fresh blood,and there was a school kid who broke her bone because of car accident.More like a hit and run case.I can see the polices were there too at that time,no wonder why it seemed busy and crowded. I feel a bit akward to receive services at the emergency ward because i still can walk properly and i dont even broke any of my bones.In other word,i am well,from the look of my physical state.

There was a time when i had to collect my urine for the urine test.A nurse accompanied me to the toilet.I said that i can walk but she didnt allowed me to and bring a wheelchair for me to sit on,once again this was akward,but..never mind.And she said something that nearly brought me to tears while she was with me.Something like "you have to be strong,you are university student and almost gonna graduate,be strong and dont let other matters get in your way" something like that in Malay.Those words snaped my heart because yes,its true, i really have other matters that i'm worried about and it sort of disturbing my daily mood and spirit and  the thing is,i dont even know what that matters are.I just feel like something's not right and maybe because that semester was a tough one for me.She is a stranger and yet her words are like mother's, and i really need that for the momment.*ugly sobbing* Haha

Ok,after that i was moved into a ward.I got 3 bags of blood,b positive hmm yummy I AM A VAMPIRE! huahuahua. Ok.I wouldnt mind how many bags they wanted to insert into my body but the thing is, the blood tranfussion hurts like hell.not really hell but it hurts TT TT. I will be softly massaging my hand around the neddle point where the blood was going from the tube into my vein for the entire time till the blood from the bag was completely tranfussed into my body.Unless if i fall asleep that i cant feel the pain.One blood transfussion session for one bag of blood will be taking time about 6-7 hours and i'll be massaging my hand for that entire time. Nice. And i had to finsihed 3 bags of blood. There was a time when my hand swelled into an ugly shape around the needle point because of the pain.The doctor said that my veins are small that they faced difficulties to insert a needle properly and i can intensely feel the pain.In fact,there was a doctor who suggest that they should carry out the blood tranfussion through the veins availabe at my feet.At my feet.Thank god they didnt.Oh god why must me having small vein? Nevermind. And there were times too when a doctor inserted a needle into my skins/flesh/veins (?) to collect some of my blood for a test and end up with no blood collected but pain.*cry*. Yes,i cried during that time.

Beside my bed was a chinesse lady in her old age.She had to undergo a sugery for her knee if i'm not mistaken.Her family which was her daugther,husband and maybe her in-laws i presumed,would came every evening visiting her and bringing her foods.I'm alone!. But her family are nice,they talked to me,asking why i'am hospitalized and why didnt i eat yet..hmm. I noticed an old chineese man,maybe it is her husband,he was sort of bellow(?) or his feet must be feeling like numb standing too long beside that aunt's bed so i offered him to sit at the end of my bed.There was not enough chairs provided during visiting hours.Tsk tsk tsk.

During the 3 days and 2 night 'vacation',i realized that i'm not suffering a critical illness as i saw many of the patients suffers more undesirable injuries.May Allah ease for them.I talked to my parents through phone several times.I had my stuff sent by my friends,thanks to aida, jawahir and haz for bringing my stuff eventhough you were working at that time.I appreciate it.

I had to recieve medicines from the pharmacy and it was a lott!! I cant even remember the prescription.seriuosly.Some of them have special 'time rule' for me to consume them but i forgot.nice.But thank god my menstrual cycle is starting to become a normal one.yeah!

I payed the bills on my own and claim them later from my university's management. I took taxi from the hospital to my campus and showed the driver a wrong way. :/ I dont even know the way to my campus,it was an ambulance who took me to the hospital from my campus. So i switched taxi in the middle of the journey and luckily the taxi driver didnt charge me. Thanks to you too.And for all my friends who showed their concerns.May Allah bless all of you.

And by returning to my campus,means i have to complete all the delayed assignment as soon as possible.pheww.The final diagnosis says that i am having symptomatic anemia secondary menorrahgia.It is today that i realised the name of the final diagnosis because the paper that shows my diagnosis had a terrible doctor's handwritting that i can only recognize the first three words.Thanks there are mr goggle.

May Allah ease my business, preserve my spirit and guide me to the right path.I dont want to face those hard times again where i am weak but i cant determine why.

#PrayforMH370